Oh yeah I guess I can post this thing.



Meh.

Anyway, just realized I don't really have any plans the next two days. Which is probably good, seeing as Thursday I fly out and get back Saturday and then it's time for catching up again on Head Trip (I'm only done through Christmas) and then comes New Years and whatnot and stressing about bills all over again.

So despite me feeling antsy I'll force myself to spend two days relaxing. I'll clean of course, and pack for the trip, but otherwise... enjoy two days of quiet.

Can't wait to see the look on my family's faces when I see them Thursday. I'll be sure to have the camera out, and probably record. :D

Hip is acting up, though not as bad as the last couple of days. Since it's pretty much all muscular issues (and some tendon and bone, but I think mostly a muscle thing) cramps can actually make it a bit worse, as the muscle spasms in that area can pull a bit at the hip. Ouch.

Kitty's being cute today. She's making up for being a brat this morning when she assumed that me sticking my hand under my pillow while I was sleeping meant I was playing a game. Ow. ;)

Having an urge to play Sims again. I might do that for a bit tonight. I could even recreate my own apartment and play myself! It'd be so meta.

Hurr.

I think this is supposed to be a compliment but from what I hear of that movie I'm not really certain.

(eta: also, this is making me giggle more than it should. I never claimed to be mature.)

It seems today is the worst of Aunt Flo's visit. Incredibly nauseous, hurting, and exhausted. This blows.

All the hype for Avatar annoyed the shit out of me.

I hated seeing a trailer every 5 minutes on TV.

I hated the uncomfortably blatant product placement on Bones.

I hated the name, the ~omg it's not a movie it's an experience~ bullshit.

I was dead set against this movie. Figured, eh, eventually I'll see it because it has blue people and they are my weakness, but I was already so fucking annoyed with it that I wanted to avoid it for at least a year.

Then it came out.

Then my friends, whose opinions I trust quite well, raved about it.

I saw it tonight.

...

......

.........

Oh my God.

The very first line of this movie sold me (for obvious personal reasons). They fucking had me. I was hooked. I still tried for about an hour to remain unexcited but I could not resist its pull.

That was just... fucking incredible.

I need to see it like a million more times.

Take this from some one who's been annoyed and borderline hating this movie ever since trailers hit the TV. I loved it.

... and I want my own giant blue avatar body to run around in the woods with :(

LOL

Oh and this is important too.



Slight backstory: I took that photo on my phone ages ago at World Market. Those are the nifty little cups with blackboard-like shit on them so you can easily write your name. And some one wrote this. And last night I randomly shouted this phrase out and got "WAT??" as a response so I showed it off. Sent it over to toxico, who then put the caption on it and released it into the wild internet.

THE END. Now aren't you better off for knowing that?

;)

Like I said, last night was fun.

Also, you should listen to this lovely song right the hell now.

Ending note, I am in a good mood. A very good mood. Tired, but a good mood. Happy happy. <3

I have special friends.

Who are awesome.



Last night rocked.

My nephew's onesie came in!

( pic! )

I'm so excited for the shower next month.

Due to the kindness of an amazing person, I will need a ride to the airport on Christmas Eve.

I called my brother to pick me up, he is the only one who knows I'm coming.

<3

I miss my family. Can't really call it "homesick", as I am home... it's just, they're not. "Family-sick", maybe? But that just sounds weird.

Christmas is looking to be rather lonely in that sense. I should have some relatives in town, and I will probably see them for a bit... hopefully it won't be three hours of them asking what I've been doing with my life, me telling them, and then getting judgmental "hm"s as a reply. That seems to be the norm.

And I do have friends in town, too.

But I miss my family. My dad, my mom, brothers, sisters...

On a whim last night I checked prices for plane tickets to Memphis next week. Yeah. Nowhere near affordable. And God knows driving won't happen either. But even logically knowing there was no chance in hell of me making it there I still stayed up in bed, way too awake, imagining some Hallmark movie special moment of me showing up at the door and surprising them all. Sitting inside with them, listening to my littlest brother rave about some video game, hugging my littlest sister, meeting their cats, talking to my parents and joking around and just having a good time.

It was torture to sit there and imagine all of this so I tried to stop and focus on other things to get myself to sleep. It was hard not to think about though. I miss little things, like the way my dad giggled and my mom's face when she laughs. My sister's crazy outfits and my little brother playing tag with the cats.

I dunno. I should stop thinking about. I have no idea when I'll see them again. They were hoping to move down here soon but now that's up in the air. They barely have any money and are in much the same position I am, but with a lot of mouths to feed and a much pricier apartment. They can't get down here for Christmas and I can't get up there.

Meh. I'll do my best to enjoy Christmas, of course. But I wish there was a way for me to see them.

Got laser'd. It hurt. That goddamn numbing cream didn't even work. This was apparently my final appointment, and from now on I only go in if needed. So yay on that.

So sleepy... about to drive my poor car up to the VA clinic. It's a short enough trip that I'm okay-ish with driving myself, both for the car and for my leg. Should be all right. A bit nervous about the appointment. It'll be okay.

Then, hopefully, short nap before gettin' busy all over again. But with fun stuff.

My hair is really long. I've been noticing this a lot lately. It looks sort of awesome today.

My brother named his kitten Athena.

I find this to be not only an acceptable name, but a fucking awesome one.

That is all for now.

( Picture of her... my brother says she has an owly face )

Had nightmares. Just a few, in the morning. I was a bit too awake but still dreaming, and every noise I heard made its way into the nightmare. The heater turned on, the cat knocked something over, the upstairs neighbors opened a door... everything had me absolutely convinced that some one had broken into the house and was about to attack. Hell in one of the nightmares I was attacked. I had a knife to defend myself but the attacker also had one and managed to cut my hand, between the thumb and finger... and good lord it hurt. I'm still nervous, even though I know I'm safe and awake and the dream wasn't real.

And now for something completely different.

Caught up on Dresden Files finally, finished that up last night.

My brother got a kitten. She's very cute. He has no name for her yet but my mom posted on Facebook asking for suggestions. I suggested Shelby. She looks like a Shelby.

I'm at the laundromat and yes I totally sang Dr Horrible while I was loading my clothes into the wash.

You know, in case you needed a bit of proof that I'm a total nerd.

Got three loads going. It'd be less but I'm washing a lot of bedding and that takes up room. The dryers are big enough that I might only need two instead of three.

Vending machines should take cards.

Gonna get some reading done while I'm here, and maybe some art. :)

That Holiday anonymous love meme thing because all the cool kids are doing it.

And yes if they were jumping off a cliff I'd do it too.

There might be something cool down there.

Finally got a hold of some one at the VA. The appointment is in Denton, as it turns out. So that's a drive I can probably make myself.

Frisco appointment is still on though, which I'm not looking forward to driving. Pretty sure my poor car couldn't take it right now. Hrm.

Cleaning a lot today. I like cleaning. Helps me calm and focus my mind. Have a lot of laundry to take up to the laundromat... got big things to clean, lots of bedding stuff. I could be there for hours. Thankfully they have wifi.

Hip is acting up.

Whee.

GODDAMMIT MAKE THAT TWO APPOINTMENTS I HAVE ON THURSDAY. One in Frisco, the other possibly in Dallas.

FUUUUUCK

Since my brother-in-law is a respiratory therapist (or, was... and someday will be again), I think I want to make some matching scrubs for him and the baby (or just make some for Eli to match, since daddy already has his own scrubs)

IS THIS TOO SAPPY?

Maybe. My sister seems to like the idea. So we'll see. :)

So the VA sent me a little appointment reminder in the mail... said I had an appointment at the Denton VA clinic this Thursday. I wrote it on the fridge and everything, it was all good.

Just got a reminder call and the little robot on the phone told me the appointment is in Dallas.

Driving is a bitch right now.

Driving in my car is a bad idea until I get everything fixed up.

And driving to south Dallas is pretty much never an option. Don't get me wrong, I will do it if there is absolutely no other option but I have a bit of a fear problem with driving in that area due to what happens every fucking time I drive down there. So in short, fuck that. You know, like I said, unless I have to. And I made this goddamn appointment in the first place because I figure, hey, Denton VA... that's like right around the road, I can do that. It's like a dollar's worth of gas. Awesome!

IT SHOULD NOT BE AT THE FUCKING DALLAS VA.

So I'm going to call tomorrow and ask what the hell is up. Might be a fun little hour or so full of not knowing who the hell to call, but hey, it'll be an ~adventure~.

Other than that, today's been pretty nice! Have had the window open all day, been cleaning... it looks pretty good in here. Got laundry gathered up to take to the laundromat, hopefully tomorrow. Vacuumed. Cleaned the cat box. Will take out trash tomorrow after I clean the bedroom up more and get a final to-go pile. I'm so glad my neck is feeling a bit better than it was yesterday. Had excellent company for a while this evening.

But, yeah. I love that I have the option to go to the VA and the good has far outweighed the bad so far. But this is frustrating. And fuck south Dallas. Just sayin'.

If there's a list of reasons I'm going to burn in hell someday, laughing my fool ass off at this is on there.